Daughter is out with her boyfriend at a stock car race (she's not racing tonight), and won't be home until the wee hours of the morning. Thank God for cell phones - I will be able to go to bed at a decent hour, knowing she will text me when they leave the track so I don't have to worry until I know they are on the road. The bad part of that is they're 2+ hours away!
Son is staying over at a friends house. I was unaware the family was having a cookout until I dropped him off, but I told him on the way there that I did not want he and his friend out cavorting - meaning I know his friend just got his drivers license and they don't need to be out driving! Son assured me they wouldn't be going out. Famous last words. After dinner, Son texted me to ask if it was ok if they went to a movie. My immediate reaction was NO!!! He does not need to go to town with a new driver, on a Saturday night which just happens to be graduation weekend at the university. No, no, no!!! But then he tells me there is a group of them going, girls in one car (I should have known!) and he and his friend in the other. This discussion could no longer be had via texting. I called and voiced my displeasure with this plan, but I was between a rock and a hard place. He's spending the night with his friend, and the friend and other friends/relatives wanted to go to the movies. I WANT to say no, but that means I might as well go get him and bring him home because the others obviously have already been given permission by their parents to go. I finally consented with the stipulation that he text me when they got to the movies, and again when they return home.
At least he asked before he went out, and I am grateful for that. He has been really good about letting me know what they are doing when he's been with other friends. I really shouldn't complain. But instead of enjoying a nice, quiet evening with my family, I'm watching the clock and battling frustration and worry. This is not how I planned to prepare for my Mother's Day!
I've learned that just because I have one adult child, it does not make loosening the parental strings on the second one any easier. Can I make them be little again? Yes, I know I yearned for them to grow up, to see the people they would become - and to be proud of who they are. But it's times like these that I really want them to be little again. At least back then I knew where they were, who they were with, and what they were doing.
God, please keep my children safe as they explore the world without me.
And Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's out there!
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