Monday, February 27, 2012

Wishing Frustrations Away

I've never been one to wish my life away, but I'm glad the last week is over!  

Work consumed my life.  We had 400 college students in town for a convention.  They started arriving Friday at 2 PM.  By 5 PM, the hotel manager hunted us down, unhappy that so many of the students arrived with overflowing coolers and extra cases of beer.  We had warned the hotel that could happen, way back a year ago when we booked the event, but they assured us that they had "experience" dealing with such guests.  You would never have known it from the way the hotel staff acted that night.  I found myself acting as referee between grown adults who obviously didn't know how to handle themselves.  And I thought I only had to be referee for my family!

The rest of the weekend went much better.  We were able to keep everything on schedule, and when the students left early Sunday morning, we all breathed a collective sigh of relief.  We survived the weekend!  In retrospect, it was worth all the hassles.  We received many compliments on how well organized we were, and how much the students enjoyed the events we had planned.  But we're all glad it's over!

My relief was short-lived.  Late Sunday afternoon, my brother called to tell me he had taken my mom to the ER.  She is due to have surgery on her rotator cuff in one week, which is worry enough, but now we don't know if that will proceed as planned or not.  She has cellulitis in her foot and leg.  They gave her a prescription for antibiotics and let her go home.  When they arrived at the pharmacy to get her antibiotics, they were going to cost $3400!!!!  Thirty-four HUNDRED dollars!  For one antibiotic that the insurance would not cover!!!  They went back to the ER and had her admitted; the hospital could treat her with that same antibiotic and it should (notice I say SHOULD) be covered by insurance since it was being administered by the doctor at the hospital.  Talk about red tape.

Mom went home tonight; they don't know if this infection was caused by strep or staph infection.  There is no sign of a bite as there was when she had this years ago and had to be packed in ice.  It's mysterious.  But at least they are optimistic that it won't postpone her shoulder surgery next week.  Here's hoping everything goes well.

As if that wasn't enough, Daughter was forced to go back to doing the physical part of her job because other employees didn't show up at work.  Her physical therapist didn't want her doing that for at least another two weeks.  I struggle with how to cope with this with her.  She had knee surgery the week before Thanksgiving. I know she hurts - I know her knee swells and bothers her, and I'm sorry - I wish I could fix it.  But it frustrates me to no end that she complains about how much it hurts and yet she won't do her exercises to strengthen it, like she was told to do from the start.  She was convinced those exercises the doctor gave her didn't do anything.  She did them ONCE!!!  No, they aren't going to work if you only do them once.  She prefers Physical Therapy over working out at home or the gym.  But I had a news flash for her - Physical Therapy costs money.  I'm not paying for it when she doesn't do what they tell her to do anyway.  GGGRRR... I have to bite my tongue, and believe me, it won't be long before I bite right through if this continues!!!

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Coming Up Short

In case you haven't already figured it out, parents of teenagers are stupid - we don't know anything.  According to our kids, anyway.  I can't wait for the day they come back and say, "You know, mom, you were right about..."  I'm going to have to try REALLY hard not to say "I told you so!"  

I try to talk to my kids, but they frequently snub my attempts to have a conversation.  I was trying to ask Daughter about something she had going on this week, and she thought my questions were stupid.  In fact, she informed me that I was 3 for 3 with stupid questions, and did I want to try for 4?  I quit talking to her.

Trying to have a conversation with my teenage son is even more interesting.  Me: Did you fix the problem with the TV box?  Son: No.  Me:  Dad must have figured it out then.  Son: I don't know.  Me: I thought he was going to ask you to help him with it.  Son: Mom, do you not pay any attention?  

Um, well, I do but since I wasn't home when the box was supposedly fixed, how was I supposed to pay attention?  I guess I'm supposed to know these things by osmosis.

Later I got in on the middle of a conversation between Son and Hubby.  They were discussing how many letters are in each of our first names, and that the longer the first name the more important we are, or something to that effect. Where they came up with that, I have no idea!  Hubby and Daughter both have 8 letters, Son has 7, and "poor mom" has only 5.  "Mom, you just come up short on everything, don't you?" Son said.  Hubby promptly asked if he was referring to my height, too.  

I ignored them both and went back to reading.  With family like that, who needs enemies? 

Sunday, February 12, 2012

It's Not Easy Being a Referee

The Midlife Referee was intended as a way to vent my frustrations with being sandwiched between aging parents and growing kids.  Not that I'm complaining - I am very thankful to have both my parents and my kids.  But as the oldest child of my parents, I've always been the one to take charge.  I've been the one who always tried to fix things.  I always wanted everybody to be happy.

I realize now that I can't always fix everything, but I still try.

I wouldn't be any good at being a real referee, but at least they have rules they can follow.  Me?  I just roll with the punches, go with the flow, however you want to say it.  I'm not always good at thinking on my feet, but I try.

Still, sometimes the self-imposed pressure to make things right for my family can be stressful.  I can't take sides, even though I have definite opinions.  I have to keep the peace, and that means mediating and telling both sides what they need to hear, but at the same time encouraging them to see the other side.  Sometimes I get through to them, sometimes I don't.

And sometimes, it gets me down.  I want my family to be happy, to have good relationships.  Yes, we are going to have differences of opinion.  But the bottom line is we are family and we shouldn't let those little things come between us.  (Somebody remind me of that next time I'm the one mad, will you?)

It's not easy being a referee, but in spite of the stresses involved, refereeing can sometimes be rewarding, too.  

Monday, February 6, 2012

Punxutawney Phil Thoughts

I was disappointed to hear Punxutawney Phil predicted 6 more weeks of winter.  Then again, if the next six weeks are like the past 2 months, I shouldn't really complain.  I'm just ready for the weather to be nice enough to spend more time outside. And I'd like to open my windows and air the house out!

My mom has two tears in shoulder muscles I can't pronounce.  She has an appointment with the ortho-surgeon this week.  I worry about her having surgery, and am hopeful maybe the ortho-surgeon will recommend physical therapy instead.  It's just really bad timing for her to need surgery.  Not that any time is a good time!

Son and daughter seem to be improving a little each week.  Hubby and I continue to work on daily crossword puzzles and the kids jump in from time to time.  I'm thankful things are improving between them.

This week they kind of ganged up on me, although I don't think they intended it that way.  I often hear "Mom, I need your help."  It's nice to be needed, or so I thought.  

The other night, Son asked me to help him think of a sentence using a specific word for his Spanish class.  The extent of my Spanish is "Si Senor"!  But I did the best I could and tried to think of a sentence he could translate.  What did I get for my efforts?  "No, mom. That's stupid."  Gee thanks, kid.  You asked for my help and I didn't think there was anything wrong with my sentence!   

Then Daughter did something similar, but I've slept since then so I don't remember what it was exactly.  I just know I was left feeling kind of ... not needed after all. 

Maybe I should take after Punxutawney Phil and sleep for 6 more weeks...